Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-forties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 19
I was ready to commit suicide. I saw no upside to staying alive. I had no religious background. Just before I was about to pull the trigger, I said out loud, something like, “God if you’re real you better show me because I’m checking out”.
And in that moment, my life changed forever. I went from having a gun to my head to a profound knowing that everything would be okay, all in an instant. I understood a few things instantly.
Judgement and forgiveness are human concepts. They’re not “God’s” concepts.
We have always been loved unconditionally.
Everything is temporary.
We are all spiritual siblings.
We can never really be harmed; physical death is not the end.
At some point we will all look back upon our experience in physical form and laugh at how seriously we took it.
I spent about a month writing down this new information, because I was afraid I would lose it. I knew the perspectives weren’t ones which one would learn in the normal fashion.