Mystical Experiencer: Male in late fifties
Current location: Australia
Age at time of experience: 22
In the weeks/months leading up to the experience, l was doing 2-3 30-minute sessions of deep relaxation lying on my back per day. After practicing this for about a month, l could recall the full body feeling of deep relaxation at will during the day.
I also started doing mental exercises between my formal relaxation sessions that consisted of the following: if l was speaking to anyone l would silently and calmly repeat in my mind ” l love you” or “l forgive you”…
It may sound strange to do this and carry on a normal conversation but, in fact, it was very easy – in fact, it greatly centered me in the moment with the person.
A light bulb moment occurred when l realised that these mental exercises gave me an identical physical sensation as the deep relaxation. I reasoned that by continuing to do the two things my level of peace would increase and my previous depression would lessen. I was quite happy to just continue doing this because it felt so good.
One day l had finished a deep relaxation and heard a car pull up outside. I went out and met a middle-aged pest controller who had come to work on the house. At the same time, an old drunk who lived next door came staggering over to grace us with his inebriated presence lol…
I decided to treat both these people completely equally. As we spoke l continually ‘forgave’ and ‘loved’ both of them as blameless spiritual beings.
At the same time, l was feeling the deep relaxation in my body….l remember thinking that l was ‘listening to them with my whole body’ as strange as that sounds…
After a few minutes of this, their voices started to fade away and it felt like it was just meaningless sounds coming out of their mouths… l felt like l was sort of ‘watching’ the interaction unfold…
I then became aware of being completely surrounded by an indescribable energy that l can only describe as incredibly intense love… The conversation finished and the others left, but l stood there for how long l don’t know… just bathing in this nameless, formless, incredible ‘energy’…. thought seemed ridiculous and trivial and l was completely out of time…
A thought eventually came to me that l had to buy some paint but l didn’t want to interrupt the experience…. I moved slowly and the energy continued to wash over me so l slowly moved towards the side gate…
Everything sort of shimmered and looked amazing. The rusty old tin fence was the most awesome thing l had ever seen! As l slowly walked across the paddock, the dry grass beneath my feet sounded like beautiful song as it broke under my weight…
I also felt incredibly light – almost floating – of course, l wasn’t, but that was still a very strong sensation. I walked past a tree and reached out and touched it. I could feel this same energy in it and l knew that at our core we shared the same source.
I knew that this ‘love energy’ was what l was. It was where l had come from and where l would return to… I remember thinking ‘is this God?’ then laughing at my mind for attempting to label it!
After l bought the paint, l sat on the fence in front of the store and, as the cars drove past, l could feel this ‘love energy’ streaming from my chest to the people then returning to me. It was beyond words.
This state lasted about 4 or 5 days with many amazing encounters similar to the first. My depression completely lifted and l could not even imagine what it had been like…
The feelings gradually diminished and l discontinued my spiritual practices because l felt so wonderful. I often wonder where it would have taken me had l continued, but, being so young (22) and completely healed, l just drifted back into my life that depression had robbed me of …
Thanks for listening and for anyone else on a spiritual path, just calmly continue because the rewards can be unbelievable… 🙏
