experience stories format
Mystical Experiencer: Male in late thirties
Current location: India
Age at time of experience: 16
It was something that cannot be explained…. Unbroken joy, peace, and love combined…. Completely devoid of fear…. No one else other than me…. No world other than me… no body, no parents, absolutely nothing… no light.
Also, no time, and, unquestionably (complete knowledge), it was God, and it was home…plus the knowledge that I had to go back, which I never wanted…. 🙂
Mystical Experiencer: Male in late sixties
Current location: Canada
Age at time of experience: 22
My family was downstairs in our home. I was seated, meditating – eyes closed – and all of a sudden, a tunnel appeared – and it was like I was being drawn into it, faster and faster. Then it happened – I was immersed in white light all around. In me, outside me – there was no separation. Just brilliant white light.
And, at the same time, I ‘saw’ all things happening at once. I saw, like on the sharp end of a needle, all things there, and I felt that the only thing that was separating, causing all suffering, was not knowing what I was now seeing. It was like I knew all answers, all striving. Also, there was a tremendous physical feeling more than I have said – 1,000 orgasms at once. Much more.
Not sure how long it lasted. But after I came out of it, I had to go downstairs for lunch/ dinner. Not sure, and could not hardly communicate with my family, but I felt so moved. Have tried for years to ‘get it’ again, but have had nothing like it again. Sort of had the tunnel deal again, but not the white light immersion.
After I spoke to a TM teacher about it, he described it as a white light experience. I think I was also involved in TM at that time. But can’t quite be sure. May have started that after. But I had been doing Roy Masters’ hand raising technique – a fellow from LA, CA that I got tapes and a book from.
Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-thirties
Current location: The Netherlands
Age at time of experience: 33
At the age of 33, on April 2nd, 2018 (which was the second day of Easter), I had a party weekend on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I came home on Monday and decided to do a trip while no one was in the B&B because of Easter.
After 20 minutes… I got sucked up into “the light” and became the light. I became the intelligence. I became the love. I felt holiness in the most profound way. I knew everything about everything. I was non-dualistic. I can’t remember well but I had the feeling that I was guided around by the creator.
After half an hour, I woke up, crying in bliss like a new born baby. The most spectacular thing was that I felt small electronic sparkles from a distaste of 30cm were firing towards my heart. That feeling gave me the feeling that I was completely cleaned and forgiven for every stupid or bad thing I ever did in my life. I have never ever heard anybody talk about the electronic sparkles…
After crying in bliss for about 15 minutes, I was flabbergasted. This feeling was 10,000,000x times stronger than the NDE I had experienced before. Al the other trips I had done did not give me a feeling like this. So, I had to search again to find out what had happened. I found out about Sadhguru; he says a lot of interesting things about life. He told me his Enlightenment story, and it described almost what occurred to me. Although Enlightenment is a very high feeling, it still felt incomplete.
Last week I finished the book by Ervin Laszlo, “The Akashic Experience”. The story of Edgar Mitchel and Pim van Lommel were described in this book. The club of Budapest (where I had my first OBE) showed me about coincidences. And a lot of coincidences came up to me last summer.
The story of Edgar’s overview effect reminded me of my 2nd of April, 2018 experience. I watched some movies of Edgar where he spoke about Nirvikalpa Samadhi. After researching that meaning I found out what happened to me on the 2nd of April… Samadhi.
Now I think I know a way to help the earth.
Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-forties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 19
I was ready to commit suicide. I saw no upside to staying alive. I had no religious background. Just before I was about to pull the trigger, I said out loud, something like, “God if you’re real you better show me because I’m checking out”.
And in that moment, my life changed forever. I went from having a gun to my head to a profound knowing that everything would be okay, all in an instant. I understood a few things instantly.
Judgement and forgiveness are human concepts. They’re not “God’s” concepts.
We have always been loved unconditionally.
Everything is temporary.
We are all spiritual siblings.
We can never really be harmed; physical death is not the end.
At some point we will all look back upon our experience in physical form and laugh at how seriously we took it.
I spent about a month writing down this new information, because I was afraid I would lose it. I knew the perspectives weren’t ones which one would learn in the normal fashion.
Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-sixties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 7
I experienced a routine hypnopompic state periodically as a child. This was different. After waking, I found myself in what appeared to be a sea of light. With me was a familiar, loving and comforting “figure” who embraced and held me as I “acclimated.”
It was as if all the wisdom and love of Creation surrounded and permeated me, with the realization that I was “at one” with the figure and everything/everyone else. While I did not see others, I had the impression that everyone in my life or who would someday be in my life were gathered around me; fellow soul travelers who had a specific stake in my lifetime and I in theirs’. I realized that time and space were illusions we mutually shared to allow us opportunities to “learn” (more correctly to remember).
Eventually, the experience gently transformed into my own bedroom, where I was sitting up slightly on my pillow. But the experience never left me; I simply close my eyes and I’m back there. The figure, my personal touchpoint to Consciousness (“God”) has been with me ever since as Counselor, Companion, Teacher, and as I’ve matured, a reflection of my own spiritual self.
Mystical Experiencer: Female in early seventies
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 19
I would describe this occasion as a “sudden enlightenment experience.”
I was on the campus of the small women’s college, Queens, where I was a junior. I was between classes when I simply “knew” I had to find a private place to be. I found my way to a little-used classroom in the basement of the old brick music building. I intuitively knew to go into the bathroom and sit down on the floor where I was safe and would not be disturbed.
Then, I found myself rapidly shifting consciousness in a way that was most unusual. (I had never used drugs, never smoked, used little alcohol, and didn’t even drink coffee.) I became one with the all-encompassing awareness of being. Although the altered State I moved into had never happened before, it somehow felt safe and familiar. I had a sense of trust and perhaps even welcoming.
This altered state lasted at the most 20 minutes, and I shifted easily back into ordinary reality. I had a sense of awe and curiosity, and I knew that I had been graced with a profound gift—a gift that influences my life to this day, at age 73. Shortly after, I wrote this simple poem, which comes as close as words can do to describing my experience:
I AM wide wide above my eyes,
And so I break the compass
And expand so I encompass
All the small things, soft and gentle,
All the great things, monumental,
I lose the sense of difference
In the whole of the space above my eyes.
– Johanna Rucker, 1967
Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-thirties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 30
It’s ineffable. I had taken 200 mcs of 1p-lsd in secret. My wife realized something was unusual late that night and we began arguing. I was unable to follow her, and all the threads of consciousness were unfolding before me.
Suddenly everything came into focus, and I realized the cosmic joke. Space and time are illusory. All there is, is mind. God, that’s corny as ****. But none the less true.
Mystical Experiencer: Female in mid-fifties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 32
I was in the woods and was thinking deeply. The world around me exploded into nothing. Nothing was pervasive and conscious. The no-thing was I. The no-thing was everything. I as everything saw all was contained in me. All worlds, universes and endless, nowness existence.
Everything wondered about Jeannet. The solar system appeared, the earth appeared, Jeannet is a dream I am having. I as everything chose to renter the dream-character’s experience. The world reappeared, but I was now Jeannet and everything simultaneously. I laughed at how seriously I had taken Jeannet’s life, then cried for all who did not know who they were. I went to bed knowing.
Mystical Experiencer: Male in early sixties
Current location: Thailand
Age at time of experience: 32
Satori, absolute understanding…yet…the Tao that can be named is not the eternal Tao…There is no death…There is no judgement…One is all, all is one.
The answer to all questions can be yes/no and both are true, yet false…is a glass half full or is it half empty? There is no thing that is objective, objectivity doesn’t exist, all is relative, except the absolute which is beyond thought.
Infinite eternal bliss outside of form and thought – that is Your/Our true nature, which you are guaranteed to experience yourself. The light of consciousness is what permeates all and it will never extinguish.
Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-sixties
Current location: Australia
Age at time of experience: 20
When I was nineteen years old, I reached a stage where I was challenging my Christian beliefs and eventually concluded that without evidence, I should become an atheist. Talking to some young Catholic friends, they persuaded me to seek forgiveness for my sins. I figured it would be as good a test as any and then I could confront them with the failure of their belief. That evening, I closed myself in my bedroom and tried to summon God by praying for forgiveness. Nothing happened. I reflected on the empty universe and the pointlessness of consciousness. The universe seemed empty and cold and the problems of the world were overwhelming, with crime, evil, pollution and nuclear war a real threat (in 1973). I felt misery but determined to make my point. Again, I prayed and again nothing.
Finally, I decided the experiment was complete and I would be an atheist. I had nothing to confess, being pretty kind and causing no harm to anyone. But, unaccountably, I suddenly felt arrogant. Who was I to judge whether I was “sinless”? Much to my surprise, I suddenly felt guilty and cried like a baby, this time imploring God for forgiveness through Jesus. Suddenly, my room seemed suffused with a soft golden light and I felt this powerful Presence literally cradling me with love. It was like being in an oven of Love. I felt a communication without words that I was fine and blameless. I was “told” not to worry because the world and the universe was proceeding according to God’s Plan. Eventually, my room returned to normal. The entire experience occurred while I was wide awake either standing or on my knees.
After this, I tried to find meaning in church groups, but found them too focused on ritual or simply socializing. I’ve had other psychic experiences before and since – out of body experiences, premonitions etc., but nothing to match or repeat this. Strangely, I still do not accept traditional notions of sin. I feel as though my experience was caused by the breaking down of my ego to allow me to perceive God. But I’m not so arrogant as to insist on this, as my experience was very much a Christian one. Another odd thing was that my Christian friends at the time had no inkling of what they had triggered and themselves did not aim to produce such an experience in me.
