Mystical Experiencer: Female in early fifties
Submission date: February 4, 2022
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 50
I had been having electric body bliss during chakra meditations almost every day for months. Then something else occurred that seemed not from myself. Someone talked about a different meditation I wanted to try – a microcosm/macrocosm. Verbalizing in my head and breathing into and visualizing each element, “My solar plexus is the microcosm to the macrocosm of my nervous system, my nervous system is the microcosm to the macrocosm of my whole body, my whole body is the microcosm to the macrocosm of my mind/soul, my mind/soul is the microcosm to the macrocosm of the cosmos,” etc., etc., all the way to the multiverse and then connecting the nervous system of the multiverse back to my own nervous system.
I ran through it quickly once for practice and when I did it again, I got to the multiverse and something began to happen to me. My inner voice slowed down and stopped without my control. It became impossible to verbalize in my head, as if someone turned the switch off to the part of my brain that allows this function. I felt an energy enter deeply into the center of my torso and envelope my whole body. As the sensation or the power grew in intensity, my whole being grew larger and larger and larger until I felt connected to the multiverse. The feeling was that all of existence, the underlying power of the universe or multiverse was downloading into me. I wasn’t making this happen. This appeared to be coming from outside into my core but not just into the core of my body/stomach but deeper than that. The best way I can put it is that this power poured down into my soul.
Yes, it was love, but so much more. Yes, it was bliss but so much more. It was a feeling of pure beauty. But it was more…like an “everything” feeling, like all conceivable emotions all wrapped up into one powerful feeling. All the joy, love, peace, sadness, fear, and pain in the whole universe were together all in one, all pouring into me. I was sobbing from a place deeper than I ever have before, feeling everything, connecting to everything, every entity, every thought and emotion. I felt connected to the “One,” to the POWER of the Creator.
The intensity was of such power that after a long while, I wondered if my physical body could take it. But I surrendered and trusted. I became stripped of myself; I couldn’t feel my body as this energy seemed to burn through me. It was as though all my crap was burning up, all my…(loss for words here) karma? or shadows? or ego? “I” was enormous, “I” was beautiful, but “I” was “everything.” But I never totally lost my identity.
I felt an impulse to praise God, I was compelled to worship Him. All I wanted to do was fall before him and praise him. And I’m not religious. I don’t go to church. But God was more real than real within this energy that had gripped me. I was humbled and grateful.
I lost track of time. After some hours my husband interrupted me and it was about 9:30 in the morning. I could have stayed in that state all day and I didn’t want to leave it.
I went outside and everything was brighter and more intense than before. I didn’t tell anyone what happened, because I knew it would sound nutty. The whole day, I was drained and felt that I had to reintegrate with life. The experience changed everything but continued to an extent each time I meditated to lesser and lesser degrees for the next several days. Since then, I hear three different frequencies in my head constantly. I’ve never been the same and continue to evolve in mystical ways.