Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-twenties
Submission date: August 22, 2022
Current location: France
Age at time of experience: 24
Words cannot really describe it accurately, but my friends and I were feeling a sense of beauty, unity and happiness that was very intense. I felt full, yet my organs felt absent as if I was a balloon. Water tasted incredible, the sun was delicious on my skin, the colors were incredible, the music felt deeply moving and full of meaning. Plants and trees around me were calling me and dancing, breathing.
I was at the pinnacle of my existence and then I felt a storm in my head with intrusive and anxious thoughts that were getting to me and that I did not like. My mortality, my will to die, my discontentment with myself, the failure I felt and how all of this was an illusion. But I was so happy, I decided to let the river of thoughts flow freely and I became convinced that reality was this beautiful thing and that society, my disease and my vision of things corrupted this reality and it didn’t feel like illusion — I was convinced of it.
For once in my life, I believed in positive things I told myself. So, I repeated to myself hundreds and thousands of times “it is beautiful” and to this day it is rooted in my brain, this forgotten feeling of beauty, joy and wonder I had as a child was back.