Mystical Experiencer: Male in early fifties
Submission date: September 4, 2022
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 17
From the earliest memories of myself, I knew myself to be a spiritual being. I can remember being a toddler and feeling connected to the universe. I can remember being a child and lying down in the back of my parents’ car and feeling connected to the moon, the stars, the earth, and the energy that flows through it all.
Intuitively, I felt enveloped by this energy. I told myself I was a person connected to Spirit. This was the identity I gave myself. As I grew to be a young man, I felt this energy dissipating. I fear it coincided with the awareness that I was going to die one day.
Then a very long and painful struggle arose. This struggle presented itself as a Wall in my mind. Instinctively, I knew I had to get through this wall. As I struggled to get through the wall, I could feel my energy waning, until I had no more. Then I laid down in a field and looked up at the sky. It was a beautiful day, and there was a full moon in my view. I said, “God, I’ve always believed in you, but where are you now?” It was at that moment I felt myself just become one with Universe.
I realized the nature of the universe is pure unconditional love. The experience was so profound time and space could not encapsulate it. I was outside of time and space, I asked myself, “where am I? I was everywhere, I was anywhere, and I was nowhere, simultaneously.
Ever since this day, I knew God loves us unconditionally. From this realization I believe we are supposed to love one another unconditionally.