Mystical Experiencer: Female in early sixties
Submission date: April 13, 2022
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 60
I went to a Native American Church Meeting (Tipi ceremony). It was a little smaller gathering this time. It was a prayer for someone’s daughter and it seemed quite intimate for the family. It was beautiful calm weather out and the ceremony lasted all night. There was singing and drumming and in the center of the Tipi is a fire. The coals burn in a certain way and the Roadman can read the coals. Peyote goes around the Tipi as the ceremony continues. It’s in the form of a granular powder, fresh peyote buttons or peyote tea. You consume it in each form as it’s passed around.
I had done the ceremony before but this time it took on a different meaning for me. Looking at the fire, I felt connected to everything everywhere. It kind of speaks to you. I felt I was THAT. I AM THAT. I felt enormous, infinite and so ALIVE. I did not feel heat of the fire, the light did not hurt my eyes. I was completely free. I was it ALL. I was fully conscious. I had never been so aware of my surroundings without but also within. I felt I recognized that consciousness. It really was the highest state I had ever been. I had an understanding of what the ceremony really meant. Writing about it is helping me remember that day. It hasn’t left me; it will always be with me. I feel I touch it once in a while. It’s really HOME.