Mystical Experiencer: Female in mid-thirties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 33
I was sleeping and woke up suddenly. When I woke up suddenly, I was not groggy. I leaned up on my arm and stayed like that for a moment. Something happened. I can only describe it as “my brain exploded.” When that happened, I saw everything.
It first started as a perception of what some call “the higher self”. When I looked at it, I saw it was connected to what felt like everything else in the world’s higher self. When it made that connection, what was perceived by me to be an image of all of our higher selves separately became one. It was everything. It felt like everything and everyone. Like all time and no time.
The only emotion that could describe what it felt like is pure and true love. Once I felt it, I immediately started crying because I understood the truth. That everything is everything and nothing at the same time. That all of this means everything and nothing and that we never end or are separate from each other.
Since that time, I feel peace with everything of this experience of life. I feel love and respect for everything. Though I have to continue to live this experience, I find I no longer feel bad about the things or experiences that happen. Things are what they are and there is no reason. There is nothing wrong with that.