Mystical Experiencer: Female in mid-forties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 35
On December 15, 2012 at 6:30 pm CST, the most beautiful thing happened to me. Eight months prior I was living in Houston for a short period of time. I am originally from Dallas and I moved to Houston for a new job opportunity, but it didn't work out. So I moved back with my mom. I was 40 years old, and a single mother with a 13 year old son. And no matter how hard I tried I couldn't get work.
I've been on a spiritual path for more than 20 years and I've always been the one that people came to for advice and encouragement. So during this time I felt that God wanted me to be still, but in my mind, I couldn't afford to do that. The harder I tried to overcome my conditions, they got worse. I felt my old ways of solving my problems where no longer working.
And so a few months before the Mystical Experience I had finally stopped fighting. I was reading, praying and meditating most days. I wanted to open my own hypnosis center and so I spent most days planning how I would run my business. I knew God would provide the financial means to open my business, but at this point it was still a dream.
Ultimately a peace came over me that was very satisfying. Although I still didn't have a job, my own home, a car or income of any sort, I was content. So on December 15th I went into my bedroom to meditate like always. And afterwards I walked into the living room to sit down and watch television. I noticed the time on the clock and at that precise moment, something inside of me rose up and I began to dance and run around the house saying, Thank you God for the money!!!! Over and Over again.
The feeling that I felt was pure love. The personality me was distant. And the God me had completely taken over. I felt that I was running in space. I felt like God had completely taken over my body and the love that permeated was overwhelming. I felt the rapture of Spirit that was indescribable. And I kept saying, Thank you God for the money.
Afterwards I sat down on the sofa and I could not speak. My mother and son were home at the time, but they were in their bedrooms. They never heard me go through this experience. My mom saw me right after the experience and initially she was afraid because I was in a trance state. I cried for the next two days.
The ego me was gone. My mind was quiet. There was no chatter. I was fully in the now moment. I loved like I never had before. And I knew a revelation had come out of the experience because I kept repeating thank you God for the money. I had no idea what that meant. I wasn't working on anything that was bringing me any money and I was confused about that message, but I knew in time, God would reveal it to me. And he did….
All I felt [during the experience] was LOVE. I knew that there was nothing on this material earth plane that could give me the feeling of that Mystical Experience. And I believed that was the point. That no matter what you desire in this physical life, it could never replace the love of God. For seven minutes God got into the walls of my body and soul and it’s something that I will never forget for as long as I live.