Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-thirties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 36
I was sitting on my couch on a Tuesday afternoon. I had been feeling stressed with work situations and family issues. I started meditating and suddenly everything disappeared into a blackness or darkness. I felt like I was approaching something but all of my senses were gone. I could feel resistance against my body as I approached, but could not see or feel anything with my senses. It felt as if my soul was resisting whatever this thing was… an abyss, nothingness, some type of point of no return.
I had had a similar experience twice before, but this time I didn’t turn back. I keep going forward. It felt like everything in my being was resisting. But I continued closer and closer. There was some hesitancy, but not really fear or terror. Something like a loud rushing or ripping sound occurred, maybe even a scream of anguish within me, and then I crossed over into this nothingness. It was peace and calm like I’ve never experienced. All my senses were still gone. My ego was gone.
Then, I slowly regained my senses and awareness that I was still sitting on my couch. I wish I had better words to explain the peace I felt after that. I just kind of bathed in that feeling there on the couch for the rest of the afternoon. I think the experience itself lasted for 30 minutes.