Mystical Experiencer: Male in early forties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 41
The first time, I was sitting in a chair in my room meditating, and I remember my mind getting so clear. I was having thoughts, but they seemed to be in the background. Or, it was like I wasn’t paying attention to them, but I knew they were there.
I remember my body feeling so heavy and there was a subtle vibration. There were these waves of what felt like electrical shocks, but without the pain, and the sensation of being large and small and then just nothing. There was no up, no down, no light, no dark, just nothingness, but it was a very significant nothing, and the nothingness was me, but without my body. I remember feeling so light and free.
But once I came out of it, and the body was back, it was a feeling that I was dying. My heart was racing, and I was sweating and breathing hard like I was dying. I couldn’t stop experiencing this void when I meditated (I later found out it’s called samadhi).
But after a while, I began to put things together. We are the nothing that something springs from. I’m not sure how many times I’ve experienced this, at least ten or so I think.