Mystical Experiencer: Female in late forties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 49
I had been beaten and raped and had a horrible boat accident within a short period of time. After I healed, I went inward for two years and read the Bible, spiritual books, books on human behavior. Did a lot of self-realization, pondering my strengths and weaknesses, the purpose of life, etc.
After healing from the accident, I had erected a wall around me. I didn’t trust the human race. Hence my reason of going inward for two years to heal myself emotionally. I had always loved people, everybody, and my essence had been stripped from me. I wasn’t myself and knew I needed to emotionally heal…
I didn’t know this (i.e., the mystical experience) was an actual phenomenon until I woke up one morning in pure bliss. My whole system had what I can only describe as an intense energy in it. I went and sat on the porch and just stared up at the sky. I felt so content and at peace and had this very intense feeling of love and felt at one with God. I didn’t know what was going on, but I didn’t really care.
As I was sitting on the porch in bliss, feeling this overwhelming feeling of love, I had this clarity of why things in my life happened the way they did. It was clear as day… things like, oh, that person taught me more tolerance and understanding, and that person taught me unconditional love. I realized the boat accident had to happen, and it was a blessing in disguise.
I had to work during this time. I take depositions in legal proceedings and it requires deep concentration. They were short, maybe an hour to an hour and a half. I did fine. But during the over two days, I spent as much time on the porch as possible just feeling in awe with life. By the end of the second day, the energy was very strong, almost too much.