Mystical Experiencer: Male in early sixties
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 45
I had taken up meditation in hopes that I could learn to control my thoughts better while golfing. I am prone to the yips while putting. So, I thought some meditation may help me quiet the destructive thoughts.
After maybe 6 months or so of meditation, I was finding it to be very interesting. It didn’t help my golf game, but I was intrigued by where it led me. Then, one day I was just sitting in my usual spot on the floor focusing on my breath and setting aside any thoughts that drifted into my mind when all of a sudden everything changed.
There was a frequency I could hear in my head, maybe 300hz or around there. Everything became alive. I don’t remember if my eyes were open or closed, but I could see things near me and I sensed that they were alive. I mean tables, chairs, the air, everything… I don’t mean that they were moving or anything it’s just that I could sense them as alive, or conscious if you’d rather.
I sensed at the moment that this is the true nature of reality. Me and everything were all the same. I believed that it was the truest thing I had ever encountered in my life. I was excited, I didn’t want it to end. It slowly started subsiding. As it did, I was bummed out.
The first thought that crossed my mind was the world looks so dead to me now. I want the other thing back. It brought life to everything. I never told anyone about it. I didn’t know how to describe it and if I did try, I would fail because there are no words. I’ve spent many nights thinking about how can I describe it to anyone.
I think of myself before this experience. We’ve all heard the “We are all one” thing…blah blah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, we’re all one, but it doesn’t mean anything to anyone who hasn’t been through an experience like this. And you can’t blame them. It’s utterly just words. There’s nothing in their life experience that can make them understand.
I thought to tell someone to imagine that you’ve been seeing in black and white your entire life and for 1 minute somehow color gets turned on. Then, afterwards, try and describe to another person who also has only seen black and white what green is. That’s how I feel trying to describe my experience.