Mystical Experiencer: Male in late sixties
Submission date: July 3, 2021
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 49
On August 25, 2001, a Saturday morning, at about 10:00 o’clock in Tacoma, WA, I was sitting at my computer reading a new NDE Experience on my computer and listening to ‘A Day Without Rain’ by Enya.
The NDE story focused on a woman that was going through a major operation, and her heart had stopped. She had recognized a disturbing error in her past behavior during her life review while experiencing the great light on the other side. She remembered what was really important in life (“Putting people before pursuits”), as in her past, she was more interested in pursuits.
As I dwelled on the quote, tears began to stream down my face; I recognized that I too shared this same character deficiency. This was a deep striking truth that penetrated me emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually. I thought about how I had harmed and pushed away many of the people in my life, too busy accomplishing through single-minded acts of focusing only on my desires and being afraid to get in too close.
The curtains in the window were open as beams of sunlight poured into the room from a passing cloud. As I gazed into the light only looking into space, I felt a very profound sense of peace and calm come over me. Then there was a sudden elimination of all fear. A lifting away of a fear that felt like a thick heavy metal layer of skin, like something that I’ve always warn anonymously.
In the next moments, I felt the most wonderful and indescribable sensations of my entire life. The best way that I can explain it is to call it an overwhelming tidal wave of the most intense, pure, powerful Love and Joy that I’ve ever experienced in my life. It was a deep “unconditional” saturating Love, without condemnation or expectations, and that forgives all for any trespass. I felt that this kind of Love extends throughout the cosmos into everything. It was a Love that completes everyone and everything to its core. This was an influence infinitely beyond my understanding.
Finally, I began to blend in with this energy source (God?), until I understood that I was a part of everything and in every place simultaneously. There were what seemed like billions of multiple flashes of views, a seeing of everywhere and everything for milliseconds.
When the vision ended, I felt like I was glowing with the sun beaming in my chest. I don’t know how long it lasted because there wasn’t any sense of time involved in the experience. It all could have happened in a flash. But I estimate it lasted about 10 to 15 minutes.
I found that the vision had elevated me spiritually, and it had a direct positive life-affirming effect on everyone that I came into contact with. I became a messenger of love and one with everyone that I met. It seemed as though I could understand all the great wisdom and profound problems of people effortlessly.
But this was not to last. I soon felt the slow decline of the awakening slip away daily, and within two weeks I had returned to my normal self. I was addicted to the memory of the unconditional love that I had received, but to no avail. There only remained a recollection of great detail burned into my memory. I searched desperately for about two years, looking for a way to return to that enlightened state of consciousness without success. The experience was more real and natural to me than the reality that I’ve been living in my whole life.
However, this Mystical Vision has been the only experience so far, and it has by far surpassed any of my Life’s Greatest Expectations.
Furthermore, I do look at this vision as a gift of grace. I am not special, and I can’t think of any reason why I had that moment. It’s definitely had a colossal impact on my life that I can never deny, and I know, without a doubt for myself, that there’s something wonderful out there waiting for us all.