One with the Universe

Mystical Experiencer: Female in mid-sixties
Submission date: January 12, 2022
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 25

I was trying a new meditation. Was sitting on my sofa. I felt myself leaving my body through the top of my head. It happened very fast. I became one with the universe. It was dark except for the millions of stars and was so beautiful. No sooner had I got there I was being pulled back into my body through the top of my head. When I was one with my body, I had an amazing sensation of total knowledge. I felt warm and loved and knew that no matter what happened everything would be ok. I don’t remember what I saw or heard, but strongly felt like my soul had a glimpse of the divine.

It Seemed Like I Cracked Open

Mystical Experiencer: Male in early forties
Submission date: January 2, 2022
Current location: Canada
Age at time of experience: 23

When it happened, and I can’t recall exactly what happened, it seemed like I cracked open, cracked through. Like my self had died but I was still alive. Like a rebirth, completely unscathed. I spent time just looking in the mirror at this incarnation, fascinated, giggling.

I was staying in a basement apartment and my room had a small window to the outdoors, big enough to get through. I remember I crawled out of it. I think it was early afternoon, and I just strolled the neighborhood. I forgot to wear shoes.

I was drawn to a playground area where children were playing, and it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. It was pure joy and I thought everything in the entire universe was perfect just as it was.

I didn’t have any experience of “other”, more like the experience that I belong to God, and it was love and joy that exploded out me. [I learned that] love is all there is, and “hell” is simply not knowing you are loved and always belong to God.

I spent the following weeks just basking in the joy and I soon made many changes in my life, and changed my path completely. I felt like a completely different person. I even struggled to recall what I was like before it happened (and still do nearly 20 years later).

In the following 2-3 years, I must have read 100 books on spirituality, religion, and mystical experiences, all trying to understand what happened to me and connect with what I was feeling to be true.

I had never really read much before and I had never been to church or was in any way religious prior to the experience.

Pure Unconditional Love—God

Mystical Experiencer: Male in mid-seventies
Submission date: December 29, 2021
Current location: U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 50

I was in the living room of my apartment one Saturday morning. I was sitting across from a friend, and, as I looked at her, I reached out to touch her with outreached hand. As our hands touched, I felt I had moved to another dimension, a dimension where space and time converge. I felt the totally Pure Unconditional Love within each of us on a cellular level. Then I reached out with my soul and suddenly realized that this Pure Love actually existed in every cell of everything on planet earth.

Then my soul reached out to the surrounding planets within our solar system and I felt the Pure Love within each and every cell of this solar system. Then I reached out to our universe and the vastness of universes beyond, and discovered this Pure Love was in absolutely every cell that exists absolutely everywhere. Then, my mind blew a circuit and realized that to live in this state would require me to give up the traditional Love that I felt, and it all vanished in an instant.

I actually felt the vastness of space in the universe and space within each cell within the universe. I also felt the totally unconditional love that is within absolutely everything in the universe and everyone, including you, within the universe. That Love is the Pure Unconditional Love that can only be described as what man commonly refers to as God. That Pure Love cannot be described by our limited English language. There are no words that can properly describe the FEELING of that Love. It is just there, right in front of us, within us, in absolutely everything.

We and the Universe are truly Love itself, yet it is as though we are in some deep sleep and cannot be awaken. If all of mankind were to experience this Love on a moment-to-moment basis, it would end all conflict within ourselves and therefore with each other, and would then be reflected to us by the Universe. Wouldn’t that be amazing? This Gift that I experienced has been the highlight of my life, so far. If there was one feeling that I would like to live in, on a moment-to-moment basis, that feeling of Pure Love would be it. Nothing else truly matters. Everything else truly is only a prop or a learning lesson.

God is Everywhere; It is all LOVE

Mystical Experiencer:  Female in late sixties
Submission date:  December 17, 2021
Current location:  U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 28

I was practicing meditation I learned from a book and teaching the method. I think I used the word “one” for my mantra. I was so worried about how I would support my young son and at the same time go to a training school in a different city. There was a daily allowance that barely covered the babysitting fees I would encounter vs. the nightly stay cost (it was a two-week training course).

So, while I was saying my nightly prayers at about 11:00 pm, I decided to meditate because I was having a hard time quieting my anxiety. I suddenly slipped into a white light, and my mind was pulsing, like in ecstasy or a euphoric feeling. I likened it to an orgasm in my head, but it went on and on and on.

I didn’t see anyone but I felt a deep, intense love. I was somehow aware it was God. That he loved me.

I remember saying I have to go back – my son needs me. I opened my eyes, but the room I was in was illuminated. The time was in the middle of the night, but when I looked out the window, the dark was illuminated also. I don’t remember sleeping at all, but I awoke in the morning.

I ran upstairs where my mother was just making breakfast. I told her of my experience, and she said there was no such thing, that I was just dreaming. I told her “NO”, there is a God and he is everywhere and it is all LOVE. She brushed me off (she was a strict Catholic and nothing in her upbringing told her to listen to me or believe me).

Years later, before her death, she wanted me to tell her more. I didn’t think she even remembered, but she did. She saw me differently, knowing sometimes I was closer to things in the afterlife – more than she understood.

The Ground of Love and Being

Mystical Experiencer:  Male in mid-sixties
Submission date:  November 25, 2021
Current location:  U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 44

I worked very hard as a phone support tech for an Internet company in the early days of the Internet. I was meditating and had gotten to the first stage where your mind gets quiet and the world seems to open out. Then I became aware of a vast openness and power, as if I was a powerful locomotive on a track; rather, as if I was a locomotive on a track that was also a magnetic accelerator. That is, the power came from without. Then it was as if I was “there,” not moving toward anything, but the “there-ishness” had no destination or center, it was all over.

At this point, I was not consciously aware of anything. I could tell that a part of my being which was not my usual mind was interacting with the ground of being. I compared this to vacuum-welding, in which metal parts fuse together, or to a tree’s taproot hitting the water table, without actually feeling it. This was beyond feeling and thought.

I envisioned it as falling into vast darkness below all our conscious and even subconscious experiences. Another analogy I like to use is a black hole, the cosmic object, around which is a ring of light, but the center is so dark that there is not even light in there – and yet that is the ground of love and being. I call it You. My dearest Nothing. Silence and peace lead to it and then drop away.

Then there is the loss of illusions. Illusions coat our perceptions. When you lose them, the world looks bleak at first, and then a truer beauty fades in, much truer than the superficial attractiveness of illusion.

Something Welled Up Inside of Me; This was God

Mystical Experiencer:  Female in early sixties
Submission date:  November 25, 2021
Current location:  U.S.A.
Age at time of experience:  56

My husband had died seven months earlier, and I was in deep grief. Late one night, I returned to the library and was about to sit down on the sofa when something welled up inside of me. It rose from the center of my being, from the center of the earth. Its qualities are indescribable, except to say that it was tremendous and roiling, and it shook me utterly.

I had never experienced anything like it, and I had no idea what had just happened. At the time, I had no spiritual life at all and I was a hair’s breadth away from being an atheist.

Immediately afterward, two things became clear. The first was that this was God, though “God” seemed like the wrong word for it. The second was that everything I thought I knew was wrong.

These few seconds changed everything and still, six years later, it remains the guiding experience of my life. Everything unfolds from that experience.

I have had many experiences since then, but this was the most significant, the one that enables all others.

An Immense Presence, Invisible Yet Unmistakable

Mystical Experiencer:  Male in mid-fifties
Submission date:  November 18, 2021
Current location:  Australia
Age at time of experience:  43

I was driving home from a friend’s house in the country contemplating creation. A thought came: am I the result of evolution or of divine creation? In that moment, the world ceased to exist and I became aware of an all-encompassing golden light, like a river flowing out from the vastness of space. I noticed there was an immense presence, invisible yet unmistakable.

A sense of unworthiness overcame me and a fear to turn towards the presence. Immediately a wave of deep unconditional love came over me and, as I turned towards the presence, it was shown in a sense of just knowing that my sense of unworthiness was unfounded. I was innocent of all I thought I did, it [(life)] was just a dream, and I was forever loved.

After this communication was the recognition that I was light and love emanating from the source of all that is. An overwhelming sense of gratitude and love pervaded my being. The more gratitude for this love I felt, the more the love would grow. At some point, it seemed as if I would explode in this ecstasy.

Then, in a flash, the world appeared, and once again I was driving my car. At that time, I had no idea how long I was unaware for, but, in hindsight from when the experience occurred to when I regained  perception, I somehow negotiated two major intersections, merged onto the motorway, and traveled for some time at around 100 kilometers an hour. I would suggest I traveled about 15km or so.

For the rest of the drive home, I was just in a state of awe and somehow still pervaded by this all-encompassing golden light. The world of perception seemed to be imaginary for some time afterwards, and the light has never disappeared.

A Cosmic Entirety in a State of Absolute, Ecstatic Equilibrium

Mystical Experiencer:  Male in early nineties
Submission date:  November 15, 2021
Current location:  U.S.A.
Age at time of experience: 42

 

BEGINNING

Sometime in 1970, Ed [(I)], in relation with Patti, was blessed with a profound experience.

This afternoon Patti and I made love and later—our climax was spectacular and mine was of such profound intensity and depth that I felt I had experienced the most complete, Earthly ecstasy possible. After some moments, when I normally would have felt the orgasmic spasms subside, the physical or physiological symptoms rapidly diminished but the emotional ecstasy not only persisted but seemed to be growing in intensity. There was the feeling that maybe something even more profound was about to happen and I rolled over onto the adjacent bed and arranged a position where I was flat on my back with my hands crossed over my chest.

The sexual quality was now completely replaced by a feeling of radiant joy throughout my entire being, accompanied by an increasingly poignant sense of emotional ecstasy which was rapidly becoming a spiritual sensation. (About a minute had passed since lying on my back.) As this sensation intensified, my regular physical senses started to become numb. Through my art appreciation studies, I was familiar with the Bodhisattva smile and I semi-consciously helped my facial muscles, which seemed to be pulled by a warm, electric-like force, transform my expression into a similar smile of absolute ecstasy.

The electric-like sensation grew in intensity and rapidly spread throughout my entire body and I became enveloped in a soft “glow” of exquisitely sweet energy. Although I had no sense of hearing outside sounds, there was an impression of a soft, rushing noise associated with this feeling. My eyes were closed but the dark field which normally seems filled with minute sparkles of varicolored light was clearing to a truly black intensity; my hearing and sense of touch were attenuated until, finally, I was physically numb and the electric feeling, the ecstasy, and the darkening field was all there was to my consciousness save for the awareness that I was about to be “launched” out on a profound journey…outward, inward of wherever. I felt the kind of anticipatory excitement that you get as a passenger in a jet at the moment the tremendous thrust just starts to develop to drive the plane down the runway to takeoff.

Transcendent Journey

ASCENDING

All these sensations seemed to be peaking; the dark field seemed to squeeze into an even darker horizontal, rectangular slot and with a gentle lurch that seemed to kick my head back. I shot through the slot into the very blackest void for the merest fraction of a second. Instantly the light returned and I was on my way, completely aware of my naked body with arms crossed on my chest being carried “upwards” at a fantastic speed in a stream of energy. I was in an exhilarated state of sharp consciousness and clearly aware that I was on a supreme adventure. There was the impression of pale green and peach-colored rivulets of energy rippling in the stream, the diameter of which seemed just large enough to accommodate my body and the whole; they appeared to undulate as if in response to the great force and speed of the energy involved. I experienced an extremely pleasant sensation as the “plasmic” stream rushed over my body.

Very soon, my consciousness rapidly intensified and as the stream sped me on, an ever-increasing clarity seemed to reveal all personal and collective memory, knowledge, and wisdom. As fast as this immense body of intelligence was presented, it was realized, first as awesome, almost immediately became insignificant, and then was left far behind in irrelevance.

After a few moments of traveling and getting the impression I’d been transported far from Earth, I felt myself slowing down in the stream (as if the stream continued at the same speed but with lessening energy) and as this happened, I became aware of a message “coming-down-to-me” to the effect that-IF I WERE TO CONTINUE, I MUST AGREE TO DIE. I received the unmistakable impression that I was being offered a choice from some external, cosmic intelligence… to live and return now, or to accept earthly, physical, permanent death and continue this journey to the unknown. Without hesitation, and in fact, without losing a great deal of my ecstatic feeling, I generated a clearly conscious YES… and accepted death. With this, my speed again increased in the stream and I traveled even longer and further than before without much change in my condition.

At some point, my self-conscious awareness began to be superseded by a radiant sense of cosmic awareness which seemed to approach the absolute. I recall a blazing light starting at my feet, and in a relentless rush, coursing up my body, annihilating my physical substance (kind of like a Fourth of July sparkler consuming itself), and, when it came to my head, (still speeding in the stream) all form and consciousness, in a kind of slow-motion burst, transformed the last trace of my physical or conscious “self” into a dazzling, expanding, gigantic light.

As this rapidly expanding “I” was thrown out free by the stream into a cosmic void where “I” almost immediately became joined with a cosmic entirety in a state of absolute, ecstatic equilibrium… a separate but joined, immense, dazzling pure light of cosmic awareness. The impression I have which may not be accurate memory of this particular instant, but something I conceptualized later during recall, is that “I” was in union with infinite cosmic forces; “my” light was white, intense, immense but finite, as “I” was aware of its outer limits; there was the feeling that there were other similar systems “out there”. There was in this cosmic ecstasy a dimension of cosmic family love and it was infused throughout this infinite system.

This state persisted for some time—then “my” light started to retract.

A Deep, Deep Feeling of Absolute Bliss

Mystical Experiencer:  Female in early sixties
Submission date:  November 8, 2021
Current location:  United Kingdom
Age at time of experience:  48

I regularly receive reiki from an experienced practitioner. I find the experience relaxing and uplifting. I usually see swirling colours and occasionally fleeting visions of countryside scenes. My practitioner always begins with reflexology before reiki. I am not particularly a believer in either therapy but enjoy the relaxation and personal space. Prior to this session, I had been with my mother constantly for 3 weeks, and she had died nine days previously.

During the reflexology, my feet seemed unusually sensitive and I was conscious of short bursts of medium intensity pain in various body parts. My practitioner stopped the reflexology early and moved on to the reiki. I was awake but very relaxed with my eyes closed.

None of the usual colours and patterns were coming to me and mostly I was in blackness with some periods of static. My mind was clear and I was not feeling consciously sad. At some point, I could feel copious tears running down my face and a deep warmth throughout my body. My heart suddenly began to race and my throat felt constricted. I felt a heavy crushing weight on my chest and my heart lurched. At that point, it was slightly perturbing, but I consciously decided to stay relaxed and go with the sensation. It was very mildly uncomfortable.

I felt a warm rumble in my chest, which built quickly to a rhythmic gurgle of thick secretion on my chest. I tried to clear my throat, but couldn’t. The noise was loud and I began to think I was experiencing my mother’s last moments and her death. I don’t know how long the gurgling lasted but I felt the sensation of a long firm embrace and love pouring into me. My mouth moved into a smile, and I had a deep, deep feeling of absolute bliss before opening my eyes and laughing with relief and at the strangeness of what just happened.

Following this experience, my grief at losing my mother has changed significantly. I no longer feel distraught and adrift. I am still sad but accepting she had a long happy life and was ready to leave it. I have no religious belief, although hers was very strong.

More Real Than Anything

Mystical Experiencer:  Male in mid-forties
Submission date:  November 8, 2021
Current location:  Canada
Age at time of experience:  22

During my undergrad in Anthropology, I took several courses on altered states of consciousness and the phenomenology of religion. A group of 6 friends decided to get a large amount of mushrooms and take incrementally more each weekend until we had a breakthrough experience. Once we took 5 or more grams the breakthroughs happened.

We would sit comfortably in a meditative state in a place where we could lay down. We had soft music playing and soft lighting. One of us was designated the “lightning rod” who stayed sober to help if the doorbell rang or there was anything to deal with. Once the trip started there were many segments or vignettes, most of which cannot be encapsulated by words. The initial most memorable segment was when I turned into a vibration (colour) and shot out of my body straight up and quickly left the earth.

Space was a thick soup of all of the questions and answers of the universe, but I couldn’t make them out as I was moving too quickly. I continued to gain speed as I left the solar system moving towards the edges of the universe. Once I reached the edge of the universe I split in half and started to move around the edges of the universe at increasing speed.

Eventually, my vibration encompassed the entire edge of the universe and came together causing an explosion. The explosion pushed me into another realm where I saw a giant pool of all of the vibrations of everything that has and ever will live, where all life begins and ends, like a giant pool, that felt deeply like home. It was like I was being shown this by something/someone that knew me more intimately than anyone, and then I realized I was in the presence of God.

Not the God that you are told about at Sunday school with the robe and beard, actual God. The entity that came up with all of this. It wasn’t a person but like me also a vibration. Not a male or female but for the sake of convenience, I will say he. We communicated telepathically. Like my soul to his. I could feel a sense of pure love and home. He comforted me as I was shaken by this experience. It was a feeling like a warm smile and embrace by the one who has loved me before I existed. He told me he was happy with me and it had been a while. I felt a profound sense of being home and comfort.

I met him again a few times after that but that one experience alone made me not fear death as I had seen where we head after this and it doesn’t scare me. After this segment with God, there were many other somewhat confusing segments that words cannot accurately describe, but I know that what I experienced is real down to my last molecule. I don’t share this account with people as I fear they will think I am not right in the head. It has been more than 20 years since my first true encounter with God and every time I walked away with a line to remember. Things such as “Watch what you are doing”.

I grew up Mennonite and after my 20s have found organized religion silly. It is hard for me to listen to someone telling me what God wants me to do when they have never met him. The hardest part of all of this is keeping it to myself, as I want to share my experience as I know it was more real than anything.