Mystical Experiencer: Male in his early seventies
Submission date: June 19, 2023
Current location: United States
Age at time of experience: 25
So, I had been practicing TM without much commitment. I had also received Shaktipat from Muktananda, which was an amazing thing. My wife and I planned a big trip to the beach to see if we could buy a house. We took the subway. While packing my backpack I found half a joint in the little pocket and decided to smoke it.
I hadn’t smoked pot in maybe a year. I believe I lost interest because of meditation. The more I meditated, the more I became paranoid, so I didn’t enjoy it. I was mildly stoned, but was quite used to it, having done so thousands of times. I got mildly paranoid, thinking the other riders were noticing I was stoned and I sat down.
My backpack gave me a good posture which seemed to cause an energy in my spine. I started to get nervous and kept my eyes closed and just had inner vision. The golden energy became very strong, shooting up my spine and out the top of my head. It had the force of a firehouse on full blast. It was ripping me against my will, out of my body. I was certain I would either die or be insane forever. I now feel my small self was being annihilated, and self-annihilation is the root of all fear. That was what was on me. I fought it with all I had, but the golden light firehose was unstoppable, and I succumbed.
Everything changed. I opened my eyes and all the people were orbs of golden light. I was feeling very good like I had overcome my death fear. I had the overwhelming certain knowledge that this was the true knowledge that completed me and all others. It was certain as a sledgehammer over the head. Absolutely. I felt I could know anything, but actually got lost on the subway and ended up at the Statue of Liberty.
When I had to focus I could see the entire subway system in my mind’s eye. I had knowledge of many things. I felt time and space were erased. When we got back on the street I realized my physical self had also been transformed. I was in a state of physical Grace.
My skeleton and tendons and muscles were released from neurosis, which inhibits them. Everything I saw it was with new eyes and full of light. I was in a state of grace in every way. I knew with absolute certainty that this was the correct way of life and that every person has this at their core.
My wife was asking me “‘what’s up with you?’. All I could say was ‘’you know’’ I felt all people have this because it is the basic reality. I could not speak about it, beyond saying ‘’You Know’’.